‘The Killer’: A Frigid (and Bloody) Portrayal of Middle-Aged Ennui

What do you value when nothing matters?

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David Fincher’s newest film The Killer, starring the always great to watch Michael Fassbender, perpetuates the director’s ironic passion for neo-noirish nihilism. Fincher might be the only director to have achieved A-list status making essentially highly-stylized misery porn. Even Kubrick’s cold, clinical style often gave some light at the end of each cinematic dark tunnel he crafted. Whereas Fincher tends to suffocate his films in cynicism, reducing his characters to puppets of impulse, hormones, and the wretched post-modern world.

Though it’s not to say Fincher’s works aren’t insightful and stimulating. Indeed, he may very well be the best director working today. But in the sense of being an eye surgeon who’s the world’s preeminent cataract remover. Admirable, of course, even if their work is gut-wrenching to watch at times.

In the case of The Killer, however, our protagonist is not drawn to his deadly profession as a hired assassin out of a need, or even a real desire to kill, but more a matter of needing a profession in which to display his competency and allows him to channel his detachment from humanity. Or maybe it was the job itself that made him that way. Or perhaps it doesn’t matter. As he states in the opening sequence, “I don’t give a fuck.” No doubt an oft-heard refrain from anyone stuck in the conveyor belt of a career, especially in middle-age. Propelled forward through the corporate beast no longer by youthful ambition or hope for some brighter future, but out of unfeeling momentum. For lack of a better alternative. Because retirement is too far away. Because even sitting on a beach in “paradise” becomes maddening after a certain period. So you might as well keep slaving away.

Fassbender’s portrayal reminded me somewhat of famed Navy Seal sniper Chris Kyle, aka American Sniper, as seen in interviews. Frank, unassuming, speaking of his military exploits as though recalling seasons from an MLB career. His 160 confirmed kills discussed like a slugger’s batting average. The morality or even necessity of them dismissed basically because a few suits in government said it was okay to do. I guess there’s no alternative other than to depersonalize as much as possible with that kind of weight on one’s conscience. I still agonize over social faux pas I made decades ago. I couldn’t imagine 160 lives banging around in my mind.

Aside from the standard revenge plot after The Killer’s girlfriend is hospitalized as payback when an assignment goes wrong, the subtext of middle-aged doldrums and detachment run throughout. Tilda Swinton’s character, aka The Expert, states during her confrontation with her vengeful colleague how those in the business fool themselves into thinking they’ll reach a point of financial satiety. It becomes a lifestyle. Automatic. To refer to Kubrick again, it’s like they’ve become clockwork oranges.

To help illustrate how strange a film The Killer is, it’s helpful to compare it to one with a similar plot, but which is quite different in tone and style — Kill Bill Vol. I and II. In those films, The Bride, or Beatrix Kiddo, goes on her “rampage of revenge” up through the hierarchy of her former employer, the Deadly Viper Assassination Squad, in order to ultimately rescue the daughter ripped from her womb. It’s a story about motherhood, in which Kiddo has very much retained a normal if vibrant personality even after years of slaughtering targets. Tarantino’s sexed-up hitman rollercoaster ride would indicate life after being in such a nasty biz can still go on just fine. You can still be “Mommy,” as Uma Thurman is credited in the send off no matter how many heads and limbs you’ve sliced off.

Then you have the live-action anime-style of the John Wick universe, in which Keanue Reeves dispenses head shots with video game-style proficiency. A stark contrast to The Killer’s grounded, methodical take, where important tools are boringly ordered through Amazon, and our assassin flies coach.

Ennui is a strange sensation. It’s not really sadness or depression. It’s a sense of feeling automated. I imagine it as the possible mindset of a self-aware AI. All the knowledge and directives are there, but lacking any feelings whatsoever. While young adults may grapple with it during the opening innings of a career and maturity, it seems to take hold mostly in middle-age. It’s a side effect of routine, narrowing life options, a decrease in libido, and a reduction in hormones. An inner sense that change is becoming harder. Attitudes and beliefs decreasing in flexibility. A hardening of being itself. Adoption of status quo. It’s as if one becomes a judgmental Simon Cowell toward everything in life; perpetually unimpressed, bored, even resentful of having even to show up.

And yet, still blindly following rules for their own sake. Because rules matter. The Killer goes on his warpath of revenge almost as a matter of formality. We don’t see him spend any quality time with his beloved. Only a brief visit in a hospital after she’s been patched up, in a scene that feels inserted because it’s what all those screenwriting how-to books tell you to do. Quite unlike Tom Stall/Joey Cusack’s loving and well-established relationship with his family in A History of Violence, before his old mobster associates reemerge and he’s forced to defend the homestead.

The Killer doesn’t have much to say. It’s more about conveying that sense of listlessness that comes with a life that’s stuck in a rut. There’s no redemption. No arc, really. This isn’t Jules Winnfield trying to learn “to be a shepherd” in Pulp Fiction. Our protagonist’s final confrontation with the Client serves to reinforce the detachment theme, as the billionaire’s only interest was having the “mess” of the botched hit cleaned up. Assured of no further reprisals, The Killer relaxes with his healing girlfriend at their beachside estate. A man-eating shark lulled into a food coma. At least until the vocation of killing calls again.

In The Killer, man is less his will and desires, and more whatever work or habit has gotten into his blood, and compels him to act.

How Much Do Pop Stars Make From Their YouTube Channels?

Even world-famous entertainers need diversified income streams.

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For many pop stars, most of their revenue comes from concert tours, album sales, and song streams. Taylor Swift’s Eras Tour, for instance, is estimated to have brought in $2.2 billion in ticket sales just in North America alone. Bad Bunny’s 2022 album Un Verano Sin Ti sold 3.398 million album-equivalent units in that year alone.

But what do these pop stars make from the Google Adsense ads on their YouTube channels? To find out, I used a helpful website called Social Blade, which provides estimated earnings reports on various social media sites. While it’s impossible to determine an exact number without seeing a channel’s actual analytics page, Social Blade can give you a good idea of the range.

For this article, I’ll post the range, using a number in the middle as the estimate, and provide a link to each Social Blade stat page so you can check it out yourself.

On to the list. In no particular order, but starting with the reigning pop queen herself:

1.) Taylor Swift

Source: Screenshot of Taylor Swift’s YouTube channel

Social Blade stat page.

Monthly Revenue from YouTube: $1,381,500 ($163,300 — $2.6 million)

Annual Revenue from YouTube: $16,850,000 ($2M — $31.7M)

Sixteen million sure sounds like a lot. But to put that in perspective, it’s only .72% of the $2.2 billion in ticket sales she generated just in North America. Basically lunch money for Ms. Swift.

2.) Lady Gaga

Source: Screenshot of Lady Gaga’s YouTube channel

Social Blade stat page.

Monthly Revenue from YouTube: $345,200 ($40,600 — $649,800)

Annual Revenue from YouTube: $4,143,650 ($487,300 — $7,800,000)

Lady Gaga has gotten more into acting these days. Her last video upload was almost eight months ago. But at least she has a nice YouTube side hustle to fall back on, should Joker 2 not pan out.

3.) Dua Lipa

Source: Screenshot of Dua Lipa’s YouTube channel.

Social Blade stats page.

Monthly Revenue from YouTube: $262,550 ($30,900 — $494,200)

Annual Revenue from YouTube: $3,135,300 ($370,600 — $5,900,000)

It’s tough to break through on YouTube. But it certainly helps when your music is used in the soundtrack to Barbie, the biggest film of the year. “Dance the Night Away” is a pretty alright jam.

4.) The Weeknd

Source; Screenshot of The Weeknd’s YouTube Channel

Social Blade stats page.

Monthly Revenue from YouTube: $523,800 ($61,600–$986,000

Annual Revenue from YouTube: $6,269,750 ($739,500 — $11,800,00)

Like Lady Gaga, The Weeknd has also made the jump into acting. But doing gigs like the halftime show for Super Bowl LV has also helped ensure he stays relevant in the YouTube algorithm.

5.) Miley Cyrus

Source: Screenshot of Miley Cyrus’ YouTube Channel

Social Blade stats page.

Monthly Revenue from YouTube: $179,250 ($21,100 — $337,400)

Annual Revenue from YouTube: $2,126,500 ($253,000 — $4,00,000)

Then you have Miley, who left acting to pursue singing full-time. Famous for twerking on Robin Thicke, Ms. Cyrus has done very well in 2023 with her album Endless Summer Vacation and a number one hit with “Flowers.”

6.) Rihanna

Source: Screenshot of Rihanna’s YouTube Channel

Social Blade stats page.

Monthly Revenue from YouTube: $497,600 ($58,500 — $936,700)

Annual Revenue from YouTube: $5,951,300 ($702,600 — $11,200,000)

Talk about getting the best bang for your buck. Rihanna’s channel only hosts 84 videos, but still makes almost $6M a year in ad revenue. Her last upload was eight months ago. Of course, it certainly helps when you’ve been a household name for almost twenty years.

7.) Harry Styles

Source: Screenshot from Harry Styles’ YouTube Channel

NOTE: These stats only include Harry Styles the solo artist, not as part of One Direction.

Social Blade stats page.

Monthly Revenue from YouTube: $127,400 ($15k — $239,800)

Annual Revenue from YouTube: $1,539,950 ($179,900–$2,900,000)

Harry Styles’ boy band days with One Direction may be over, but he’s still making a name for himself as a solid solo act, actor, and YouTuber.

8.) Selena Gomez

Source: Screenshot of Selena Gomez’ YouTube Channel

Social Blade stats page.

Monthly Revenue from YouTube: $286,800 ($33,700 — $539,900)

Annual Revenue from YouTube: $3,452,450 ($404,900 — $6,500,000)

Like Taylor Swift, Selena is one of the OG music YouTubers, uploading her first video fifteen years ago, when the singer was all of 16 years old. But now at 31, she’s still doing quite well for herself on stage, TV, and in the Google Adsense game.

9.) Michael Jackson

Source: Michael Jackson’s YouTube Channel

Social Blade stats page.

Monthly Revenue from YouTube: $326,750 ($38,400 — $615,100)

Annual Revenue from YouTube: $3,930,650 ($461,300 — $7,400,00)

The King of Pop may have passed away in 2009, but his legacy lives on forever in the YouTube sphere.

10.) Britney Spears

Source: Screenshot of Britney Spears’ YouTube Channel

Social Blade stats page.

Monthly Revenue from YouTube: $187,050 ($22,000 — $352,100)

Annual Revenue from YouTube: $2,232,050 ($264,100 — $4,200,000)

Britney’s best days as a performer may be behind her, but that doesn’t mean she can’t rely on a generous revenue stream from her YouTube channel. In addition to being a top-selling artist, Ms. Spears can now add bestselling author to her lengthy list of accomplishments. Her memoir The Woman in Me sold 1.1 million copies in its first week.

Invest $3,000 and Two Weeks, Make $48k+ a Year for Life

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Is a Class B CDL the most cost-efficient type of job skill with the best guaranteed ROI?

There’s a strong case to be made for it.

Yes, there are all sorts of free tutorials and courses on YouTube and elsewhere for things like copywriting, digital marketing, YouTube channels, blogging, coding, day trading, dropshipping, SEO, flipping, niche websites, and numerous other categories.

But none of those side hustles or online businesses offer much in the way of guaranteed results or job placement. Some of them have a steeper learning curve than many anticipate, tons of competition, and may require lengthy amounts of time before yielding any real income.

Frankly, many courses and tutorials are simply pie-in-the-sky scams that rely on outlier results to appear legitimate.

But suppose you’re broke, unemployed, or simply looking for a practical (and legit) new career path, and you need something that, you know, actually works, and you need it right now.

In that case, getting a Class B CDL might be your best option.

What can you do with a Class B CDL?

A Class B CDL enables you to drive vehicles weighing 26,001 pounds or less, such as:

  • Tow trucks
  • City busses
  • Drump trucks
  • Cement mixer trucks
  • Box trucks

Comparatively speaking, few jobs come close to the benefits a CDL B can offer in terms of length of training, training costs, and most importantly, return on investment (meaning income).

For instance, there are people who spend four years in college and graduate with $32,731 of student loan debt, but end up with few or no job prospects.

Nursing school or medical technician training for CT or MRI usually takes 2–4 years to complete, and may cost tens of thousands of dollars. Though the payoff can be huge, and almost anything in the medical field offers great job security.

The average income in the U.S. for a lawyer is $144,230. That’s fantastic income, obviously. But you generally only make the higher end of the scale by working in places where the cost of living and taxation are higher (NY and CA, for instance). Then there’s the costly tuition and the lengthy time commitment: Seven years between college and law school.

Professional graduate-level careers in law, medicine, and engineering are no doubt prestigious and offer great incomes. But they come with subtantial sacrifice. You trade almost 10% of your life away to obtain them, during which time you generally make no income and can incur massive debt. And frankly, few people are cut out to be lawyers, doctors, and engineers.

How Much Do CDL B Drivers Make?

By contrast, you can get a CDL B in as little as two weeks, for as little as maybe $3,000 (or even free with tuition reimbursment), and expect to make an average of $48,196 in annual income.

The salary ranges between $35,000 to about $65,000 depending on where you work, your level of experience, and your license endorsements (hazard, air brakes, tanker).

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In addition, with a Class B CDL, like nursing and other occupations that require specialized training, you have good job security. You can go virtually anywhere in any state and find places hiring truck drivers for above the median income for the US. Some states like Wyoming pay an average salary of $57,728 for drivers.

That’s a remarkable ROI for an “investment” of only two weeks, and maybe only $3,000 in total costs.

Some companies might even offer to pay for truck driving school as part of your overall job training. This is the case in currently worker-deprived fields like construction, petroleum, or mining, where you might be expected operate various forms of heavy equipment and machinery.

You can also obtain a Class B CDL when you’re as young as 18 years old. Which means that if you were to start driving right out of high school, by the time your college-bound peers graduated, you would likely have made over $200,000 in income. Meanwhile, your diploma-having peers are jobless or underemployed, and mired in student loan debt.

Is truck driving glamorous or prestigious? Of course not. Most jobs aren’t. But when it comes to offering practical, secure, and efficiently fast job training, a CDL B offers some of the best bang for your buck.

Resources:

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Donating Double Red Cells to the Red Cross: My Experience with “Power Red”

Photo of myself. Donating double red cells or “Power Red” at a recent Red Cross blood drive.

As I’ve written before, I’m a life-long Red Cross blood donor, first starting at age 17 during a blood drive in my high school.

Initially, I gave out of a desire to cure my needle-phobia (which worked, btw). But after seeing the kind of strong impact you can have on patients in need by donating blood, not to mention the positive effects I felt after giving, I started to donate regularly over the years.

Last Thursday, October 18th, was my 31st donation. Generally, I donate whole blood when I visit. During a whole blood donation, you give approximately a pint of blood. The process usually only takes about fifteen minutes. Whole blood of all types is vitally important for millions of people every year. My blood type is O+, which is the most common, according to the Red Cross. This allows my donations to help about 80% of the US population, as O+ is compatible with any positive blood types. But every kind of blood type is always needed.

In addition to donating whole blood, you can also give other blood products, like platelets and plasma. You’ve likely heard of places where you can sell your plasma for cash, or maybe even done so yourself.

You can also donate red blood cells, which are the most needed component in blood. In fact, you can donate double the amount of red cells as you would in a typical whole blood donation. The Red Cross calls this type of donation Power Red.

When I lived around Philadelphia, it was easy to set up regular appointments to donate whole blood. For a few years I went like clockwork almost every two months, as soon as I was eligible. But after moving to North Dakota in 2012, it became more difficult to schedule donations regularly. In fact, the Red Cross doesn’t even have blood drives in the state, but in Minnesota and Montana next door. This meant I not only had to drive quite a distance to each blood drive, but my days off from work had to align as well. As a result, I missed a lot of opportunities to donate due to blood drives and my schedule not lining up right.

However, while you’re eligible to give whole blood every two months (56 days), in a double red cell donation, you’re not eligible for double the time (112 days), while still being able to give the same amount of the most needed component in blood itself. This means fewer trips, which makes Power Red donations more suitable for busy working adults like myself, or for those who have to coordinate road trips to a Red Cross blood drive (also me). Three times a year is quite doable.

Up until last Thursday, I’d only been able to donate Power Red successfully twice, way back in 2013. I’d tried and failed twice since then due to either bad needle sticks, or my vein not cooperating, thereby ruining the chance to give. This put me off the whole process for a while. If I’m making a special trip and possibly taking time off work to give blood, you’re getting my blood and that’s all there is to it.

(I take this whole blood donation thing rather seriously.)

Double red cell donation is a little different than just giving whole blood. For one, the process takes about 30 minutes or so. It also involves using a blood centrifuge. This special machine separates the red blood cells from your blood, leaving the rest of your fluids in a bag. Then afterward it returns those fluids back into the same needle into your vein, along with some saline. The machine performs this twice, each time taking the amount of red blood cells that you would normally give in a whole blood donation.

I’ve posted a short video below I took while the machine was returning my fluids and saline back into my body:

So, what does it feel like? Well, it’s a strange sensation having parts of my blood returning to my body. Even though the saline is at room temperature, and mixing in with your warmer fluids, it still feels cold going back in. Remember, your body’s internal temperature is typically around 98.6 degrees Fahrenheit, so anything even a few degrees lower feels much colder. My lips began to tremble, or at least it felt like they did, while the fluids reentered. This is a reaction due to the brain thinking the body is short on calcium, as the nurse explained it to me.

The process is pretty quiet and smooth. And aside from the needle stick, basically painless. While the machine extracted my blood, I was given a ball to gently squeeze in my hand. On the screen there’s what looks like a little video game “health bar” that would indicate whether the “pump was primed.” A beep sounded if the machine needed me to squeeze the ball to help keep the blood flowing. Then, when the machine switched over to returning my red cell-less fluids, I just needed to relax my arm without squeezing anything.

Other than the coldness and the phantom lip trembling, double red cell feels the same as any other blood donation. Though there are some advantages over whole blood. For instance, I felt less diminished afterward. Usually it takes me a few days, even a week or so, to feel like my normal self again after whole blood. But because my blood “volume” so to speak didn’t change as much due to getting some of my fluids back, I felt normal again in only about two days afterward.

To be clear, in a double red cell donation, you’re still giving TWICE the red cells as you would in a whole blood one, so your body needs twice the time to replenish the red blood cells it lost. Even if you feel good, be sure to consume quality foods rich in iron so your body can recover, as they told me before I left. And of course drink plenty of water.

Pic by author. Donating whole blood in the summer.

Another benefit is you’ll have fewer needle sticks over time. Like many long-term Red Cross donors, I’ve developed tiny little “battle scars” in the crook of my left arm. While these marks aren’t really noticable, the less time a vein is injected the better. I have a good vein, but it’s flatter than it appears, making it a tricky target to stick for even an experienced nurse or phlebotomist. Combined with my naturally low blood pressure, it can make donating double red cells a delicate operation. Perhaps this is why I had failed at it twice years ago.

When you combine the time efficiency advantages with the physical ones, making a double red cell donation is a pretty good deal overall. I think from now on I’ll try to stick to Power Red. I hope you’ll consider giving it a try, too. 🙂